Sorry to hear of your situation. I know you'll work through them in time. Many questions indeed, and you raised a very important one. All the training and practice in the world won't substitute for antilock brakes in an emergency situation. In my opinion, this is one of the greatest problems with this bike. Honda really blew it on the brakes. I love mine, but nearly went down with a front wheel slide out from grabbing brakes in an emergency situation. Slow speed was the only thing that saved my ass.